Student newspaper boss stresses about job even more now
It was my sophomore year. I had spent nearly eight months in anticipation of being a part of The Candidate, so I was pretty happy I was able to get on staff.
When I learned about the position of editor in chief, it was my mission to have that title my senior year.
I wanted the top spot on The Candidate and I got it.
However, there was no way I could have predicted the hot mess that was coming.
As exciting and honorable as it was to be named editor in chief, it was also scary.
COVID-19 is impacting lives in so many ways, and that all started near the end of my junior year when we had to go all online. It simply felt like nobody knew what to do or what to expect.
Over the summer, the thought of school being online again for my senior year and not knowing how the administration planned to move forward made me feel uneasy to say the least. Add to that I was going to be in charge of a publication during a pandemic; my stress level was at an all-time high.
At the start of this school year, my senior year, I was the only person on staff with any experience in journalism, plus it is uncharacteristic of me to speak-up in group settings.
Being in charge is out of my comfort zone, so even though it is an honor, it is also anxiety-inducing.
The thought of having to direct a group of people and help them while also having to focus on my assignments was, and still is, overwhelming.
There is a lot for me to keep track of, which can get confusing very quickly if not done well.
The alternating days are not helpful either because it is more difficult to build staff unity.
Having some of the staff at home and others in the building is challenging because editors are supposed to be there when questions come up. I guess I should be happy that at least we are all able to work together online, but it is not even close to being the same. Technology can do a lot, but it can never match the feeling of being physically present in a workshop class.
Sitting at home, looking at a laptop while interacting with students that I should be in class with is just strange.
Honestly, the entire world is very strange and scary right now.
It is so off-putting with the mandatory masks, attending school every other day and the block scheduling; heck, even the teachers were switching rooms at the beginning.
The strict guidelines students and faculty have to follow to help make everybody as safe as possibly is necessary, but it certainly does not make things easier. I know things could be worse, but things could be better as well.
It is an overwhelming feeling knowing I have to call the shots, strategize and figure everything out during a pandemic.
It is different and I want normal life back, but I know it is not going to happen. This is our new normal.
I am proud to have this title, however. I need to remember that.
Two years ago I would have been ecstatic over the thought of it.
These circumstances are not something I want to work around, but that is reality right now. I certainly know it could be much worse.